The only thing I recall I ever wanted to be for the longest period in my life was a doctor. That dream however died sometime after high school after meeting with some medical personnel who showed me what being a doctor really meant. Quite frankly, I did not have the stomach for it. Maybe I’d wanted it because that’s all I’d seen in my childhood. You know those chats parents have after work about how their day was etcetera, at our home, many a times it was about a conditions patients had, diagnosis, heavy medical terms and all. From that I developed a liking for biology, which is still present to date. The dream to be a doctor most likely stemmed from that experience. But on that day, after I’d completed my high school education and mom took me to tour the hospital and speak to other professionals, I realized that I did not have the calling to be a doctor. And so I had to rethink things over again.
Have you ever sat, or stood, and critically studied or analyzed yourself? Everything from personality traits to likes and dislikes interests et cetera? Well, that year I did. I had a chalkboard at home which I used to write and draw diagrams on about me. You would have thought I was designing some blueprint for a large company. Truth is I was searching myself. I did my best to find out most things about myself. The areas I excelled most in, liked most and I’m passionate about. I studied the figures I look up to. At the time, I shortlisted three, that was Dr. Phil, Dr. Carson and Mark Zuckerberg. I really admired these guys and I thought somehow based on what they do and the fact that I liked them a lot, I’d get a direction in my life. More specifically, the career path I’d follow because I was at a crossroad.
All three shared a characteristic; they were all very knowledgeable in their respective fields. They are the kind of folks that would interest you by how they solve a solution and once they solve it you almost always marvel at how they did it. They were smart. And I did think myself smart. That year, I think I did a whole mash up of unrelated things just to find out what interested me the most. And by the way, dad and mom, if you are reading this, hats off, salutes! I think I am privileged, no, not think. I know for sure with absolute certainty that I am privileged to have the kind of parents I do. They were always so supportive and understanding at the time. I enrolled for computer classes, thereafter, I enrolled for management classes, after that I did some computer hardware assembling course, after that I felt I’d schooled enough and decided to take a break. Then I mastered 1,091 digits of the mathematical pie during my “break”, before I joined campus.
Dr. Phil is a psychologist. Dr. Carson is a pediatric neurosurgeon. I think he is now retired. And he’s vying for presidency in the United States. If I were a citizen there, I’d definitely vote him in no question. I respect the values he stands for. Here’s some of what I gathered about myself… I am introverted, so I thought I’d be better suited for jobs that do not require lots of interactions with people. I found out I was a closet man. Most of the things I did well were those I did away from the limelight. Those things that I had an innate liking for and passion about were those that involved my hands. And a few people have mentioned to me that I am inquisitive. Going by those descriptions, I couldn’t do Dr. Phil or anything related to that because what he does requires constant interactions with people. Carson is a doctor. Well, I already told you what became of my doctor dream. So I am left with Zuckerberg, and computers. And things got interesting and lucky because computers did actually suit most of who I was. They were congruent with most of my abilities. And that is how I decided to major in computing. Four years later, I do not regret it.
It’s almost time to leave campus and the expectation is get some work, earn some money and get a life. I am at crossroads again. I have learnt some considerable amount of information about computers and it’s almost an enigma knowing where exactly I will apply that knowledge since its scope of application is so wide. Incidentally, I have picked up some interesting things along the way and it’s curious to me just as it would to anybody where this will lead. I started writing. That’s obvious because you are currently reading a piece written by me. I also gave drawing a shot and I did not do so badly If I’m allowed to say so myself. A friend made a joke that there isn’t a thing I haven’t tried. That was after he saw that drawing I’d done. He thought it was good but looked at it in disbelief and doubts it was me who did it. I used to draw in my younger years but for some reason I stopped. I know this is a long shot but I would like to learn to play and instrument. Lately, I’ve had an increasing liking for the cello. Music does appeal to me, specifically instruments. Oh how I love orchestra. The sound of different instruments in perfect synchrony is just exhilarating. Who knows, I might get the chance and learn that thing. It would be fun. I have no idea how all these interests and likings intersect and I become complete. Crossroad!
I pray to God that he helps me know which direction my life should take. And that he makes known to me though his word and the gifting’s and abilities he has bestowed upon me what he crafted me for. So that this crossroad I’m in right now ceases to get pleasured by my company.