That’s how you leave the rat race.Wachira John
That is my board; pretty messy huh? Don’t care too much about what’s written on it. Did I tell yah I’m studying Linux? I just did. Moving on, I was gazing at the board when I perceived the thoughts that are now this blog post. The stuff up there can be complex, no kidding, even for me (a person who spends lots of time with computers). I did wonder if I will ever get to wizard levels with computers. Oh how I love computers. How I would want a time when those writings on the board ooze as though they were my second name. Truth be told, there are many things I want to master, know or experience. That could at times be overwhelming. Sometimes, for me it is.
When I was a kid, I used to wonder what the teacher meant when she said we’ll never get done with education. I thought, here is primary school then high school, then campus, and I’m done, right? How naive. Now I know better. It occurs to me every day how much I need to keep myself up to speed with a lot of things. I like learning new things. I don’t like the process of learning equally as much though. That curve could be long. Suppose we acquired knowledge by eating pizza, or drinking soup, or quite simply by eating our favorite meal. We’d all be a smart bunch don’t you think? But here we are, nobody said it was going to be easy. We’re left no choice but to embrace the frustration, tears and joy that come with learning. Actually, if you keep at it long enough, you will start enjoying it. Try it, if you haven’t.
So there I was looking at my board. Then I thought, wait a minute Wachira, Look where you’ve come from. There was a time you did not know how to boot up a computer leave alone master terminal commands. It might seem dumb that you can’t figure out something now, but if you took a step back, you’d realize that you aren’t that bad. I’m not making any promises but I think makes you better poised to hack whatever it is you were onto. Computer science has taught me not to work under some certain kinds of pressure. It helps to leave the workstation to clear your head.
When I step back and appreciate what I’ve already accomplished, I know for sure a dumb person couldn’t have done that. If I did it then I can do it again. So I will do it again. Make me a cup of coffee, bake me a cake; a toast to past accomplishments.
I am not saying that we should not have goals and ambitions. I’d have a bone to chew with a person who doesn’t. What I’m saying is, we can get so engrossed into whatever we are doing till we cease living and just exist. Yeah, turn into scary boring zombies with the exact same schedules, nothing new, the same rat race every day. Many a times, we forget and fail to appreciate where we’ve come from. I think it’s important to look back; as a way of tipping the scales so that we don’t go crazy. It helps me put things into perspective. Ah, an example, as I write this post, I’m often rereading what I’ve written to know what I’m going to write in the next paragraph. If I didn’t I’d have an essay so jumbled up you’d be bored to death by it. Get the drift?
The internet has revolutionized everything. Almost anything can be done with the click of a mouse, or press of a button. It is a great learning tool. I want to learn how to be a better writer, I want to learn how to be a better computer scientist, I want to learn what something I don’t understand means, I want to read stories, I want to listen to great compositions, I want to read other blogs. I want to learn how to be a better stock trader. I want to listen to people who’ve gone ahead of me… and a ton load of other things. Clearly, I can’t do all of those concurrently. Some have to be dropped. It pains me at times to do that. But I have to or I will be ineffective. Over time, things will align themselves in their deserving order. I believe they will.
Take a deep breath, look away, let your mind remember, let it see where you’ve come from. Accept and acknowledge your past, be positive about it. It does not matter if you messed up, you’re better because you learnt from the experience. Remember that our Father in heaven loves and is with you. Remind yourself to always trust Him. Come back to yourself. Put your life into perspective.